Just a Little Update.

After being fairly depressed for awhile, I’m happy to say that I’m finally really happy with my life here.

I was really thinking about transferring to some place where I knew more people or thought I would fit in better, but after a lot of thinking, I’ve realized that I really did pick the best school for me.

After Arad left after the amazing weekend here, I wanted more than anything to just go home and leave this place that was making me feel so lonely and alone all the time. I’ve been feeling this way for quite some time. I’ve been very lonely and feeling like I haven’t yet found my place here. I felt like everyone else had their group and their thing except for me. So after getting down on myself about it for maybe a month, I decided to put myself out there.
I had already joined the running club, so that was helping with meeting new people that had the same interests as me, but I went one step further and started going to the Hillel here. I’ve met so many great people there, I’m even living with two of the girls next year.

I’m really thankful for having the chance to meet all the great people, and I’m happy with myself for putting myself out there and trying new things even if I don’t know what the outcome is going to be like. Going to college has made me realize that sometimes you just have to take the risk and try something new. Who knows, you might like the outcome.

So as of now, I’m happy here.
I’ve found friends that I really feel are true (after going through a few flakey ones) and I no longer feel nearly as lonely.

When I was thinking about transferring, I made a list in my head of the good and bad things here. I came up with way more good things, and realized that it would be very difficult to find all of these good things at a different school.
Realizing this assured me that I really did make the right choice.

Of course I would love to have been closer to home, closer to my friends, closer to Arad, but I think this is what college is all about. Getting away from home, finding yourself and still being able to have everything back at home.
I’m so lucky to have such a great supporting family, great friends, and an amazing boyfriend that I know will always be there for me even if we are ¬†over 500 miles apart.

I always tell myself, if it’s worth it, get through it.
And this is definitely worth it.
All of the I miss you’s are worth it because I know I’m really lucky to have someone to say that to every day.

In a strange way, it’s kind of nice to miss someone so much, because it makes me realize that my feelings are true and strong and that it’s¬†completely worth going through all of this just to be with them.

Just to wrap it up, I’m finally happy with everything here.
I know it took me some time, but I’m glad I’ve found my way.

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